Overcoming Ego | Overcome the Ego

“From the viewpoint of the ego, the world seems to need endless fixing and correction.”
- David Hawkins

Today is day 16 of my “inner game of fitness” makeover with Marty the Health Guy. It’s been a difficult week.

My challenge this week has had nothing to do with food or exercise. I still love the gym, the food is good, and I like eating every couple hours. I’ve got that part down.

The challenge this week has been all in my head. You see, the voice in my head is telling me that I’m eating too much. The voice in my head is telling me that the scale is what matters. And its favorite thing to tell me is, “This isn’t working”.

When I buy in to this voice in my head, I become frustrated. I become sad. I want to eat watermelon for dinner.

I find it interesting that, as a person who has written many, many, MANY articles about how we are NOT the voices in our heads, I am still easily tricked into thinking that this little voice knows what it’s talking about. No matter how many times I watch Revolver, I fall for the nonsense again and again.

I fell for it this week when I made the mistake of getting on the scale, even though both Marty & Mirela have advised me not to weigh myself at home. So you can only imagine the chaos that erupted in my mind when I discovered that I weigh exactly the same as I did two weeks ago:

“This isn’t working.”

“Why bother doing all this work for nothing??”

“These people don’t know what they’re doing.”

“Time to cut calories and lie on the food diary!”

“Oh God, I’m a failure.”

“Why am I doing this???”

(silence.)

Wait a minute. Hey little voice, what did you just say???

“I said, ‘why am I doing this???’”

Oh my God! I fell for it again!

(Just in case you’re not following, at that moment I remembered Who I Am. I remembered that I am NOT the voice in my head; I am the observer of the voice. And as the observer, I reserve the right to challenge whatever the voice is telling me.)

In the moments that followed, I decided to answer the little voice’s question by examining the motivation behind this health & fitness “makeover”. And when I dug a little deeper, I was very disturbed at what I found.

Hey little voice, why am I doing this??

“Because you’re not okay the way you are. I don’t love you this way. Nobody loves you this way. You need to change.”

(silence.)

I slapped myself on the forehead. Oh my God. What a despicable liar!!!

So there you have it folks. I just cracked open my ego for all of you to see. I want to lose a few pounds and look ‘better’ so everyone will love me more. We have a word for that up here in Canada – it’s called BULLSHIT!!!

So I call a do-over! Time to press the re-set button!

(An FYI: any time you try to do anything from an ego-motivated mindset, it’s not likely to work out well because there is no real power behind it. Which is the reason that I am starting over.)

I’m starting over and this time I’m choosing a path with heart.

Hey Heart, why am I doing this??

“Because this physical body is your Soul’s instrument of expression. Therefore it is a joy to create radiant health in the body, and inspire others to do the same”.

I see.